A whole new world!

Hello again bloggy friends. Apologies for my long hiatus! Rather than just jumping straight back into the world of makeup, I've decided to clear my head a bit. **WARNING** This blog is going to have a slightly more serious tone than my norm. :)

  I took a leave from my beauty related hobby at a time where I was feeling less than beautiful. I was in a relationship that, to say the least, was holding me back and I was unhappy with the general direction of my life. I decided I needed to make some big decisions if anything was going to change. Im pretty sure every normal 20-30 year old goes through a time in their life where anxiety and depression are a very real thing and this past year and a half has definitely been my time. My quarter life crisis if you will. 

  To be honest, it. is. rough. It isn't easy trying to figure everything out at 25. There's a point when you realize that you're young, yet somehow you're no longer that fresh out of high school teenager with no worries. You are no longer the youngest person in any given room aaaaand all of the latest pop stars are 7-10 years your junior. You have responsibilities now! To others as well as to yourself. You start contemplating where you want to be in the next five to ten years. Do I want to get married? Do I want children? Do I want to spend my adult life where I am now, or do I want to move away from my little home town to somewhere fancy and new? And then BOOM! That sudden wave of panic when you realize that you don't have nearly as much time as you thought you did fills your entire body with pin like tension. My goodness, a whole quarter of this life just zipped by! In general, people want answers from you about where you are as an adult. As a female, you have people reminding you that your biological clock is ticking! And that you won't stay young and pretty forever! *GAG* So you get thrown into... Where did the time go? Why am I not better educated?! How did I end up here?! Should I look this way or that way?! Are my clothes age appropriate? Why am I in a place that I dislike so unbelievably much?! Why do I dislike MYSELF so unbelievably much?! When did I become unable to look happily at the reflection in the mirror?! And the internal whirlwind goes on. 

  Suddenly you feel like you've fallen completely behind. Don't get me wrong! It's amazing to watch friends and family of similar ages make fantastical strides in their lives. It really is! And I'm so happy that I get to be a part of watching so many wonderful people flourish, but it can and more than likely will put a small damper on your sunny disposition if you let yourself feel like you aren't doing well enough. And oh, the anxiety of feeling like you need to try harder, be better, make things happen faster, all while competing with a shiny new generation of human beings... Yikes. 

  But my anxiety is my own. I read too often about how those who live with this lovely affliction feel like people need to try harder to understand "their" anxiety. I've been there. But to tell you the truth, I don't think people with anxiety understand it well enough themselves to ask that of someone else. In a world where we are so driven to make people understand us, we have forgotten how to understand ourselves. We rely so much on receiving empathy from others, we forget that fixing where we are starts with reflecting on where we alone have been. It's a hard revelation to come to, I can assure you. 

  Needless to say, over the last year and a half, I have taken a lot of time to sit back and reconstruct many aspects of my personality/life. I quite recommend it.  I've learned that the best way to move forward is to start working on it yourself and let people who truly want to be a part of your growth be a part of it. Those are the people who will show they love you as long as you show how much you love them. It's an amazing thing to witness. You won't have to feel like they need to understand you, they just do. And in turn you willingly learn to understand them. I've happily taken time to better myself, by myself and the outcome was far better than I expected. I absolutely expect more bumps in the road, but I am now better equipped to handle them. I still have days where I would rather look away from the reflection in the mirror. There are times that I feel lost and far behind the wonderful humans in my life, but that's life. Life is messy. Life is beautiful. Life is chaotic. Life is meant to be lived. 

  Thank you for reading! I plan on moving forward with the blog when I can and maybe doing some fun makeups or just ranty ones like this if it doesn't bother too many people. 

So much love!!

&> 

Influenster Dessange Box Review

I was lucky enough to receive another chance to try some amazing new products thanks to Influenster. 

This is the new Dessange California Blonde line that will be in Target SOON if not already! 

So, what do I think?! As far as the shampoo and conditioner go, they are quite lovely... But, I am one of those crazy people who has fully cleaned up my hair care regiment to be as natural as possible without being just baking soda and vinegar. If you are someone who still uses normal hair cair I fully recommend these! They smell so professional and my hair actually looked fabulous! 

They claim to nourish and brighten your blonde locks and I have to say that this duo for sure does that! But in the end I have had so much luck with more natural hair care that I don't think I will be switching. Though I may finish up the bottles just because my hair looked so great!

Now the CC Brass Color Correcting Cream... Um yes please! This deep indigo colored cream is just fabulous! 

I've used the great shampoos that have the same effect on color correcting but they are so damaging. This lovely cream is infused with linseed oil that nourishes your hair while depositing enough color to break through the dreaded blonde brassieres! I will definately repurchase this product because of how great my hair felt after and it's so much easier than having to tone your hair with purple dye constantly! 

Now for some pictures!! 

I have naturally curly and this is with no heat styling other than my bangs. (Because not doing something with bangs when you have curly hair is just a disaster!!) and I do have my hair dyed slightly lavender and the cool thing is the color booster helps make the color last longer. 

All in all I say give this brand a try! It's well worth it. And if you have blonde hair, defiantly try out the color corrected!

Let me know what you think in the comments below! Thank you so much for reading!!

&> Chelcey

High End Holiday Makeup!

Alright guys post 101!! Here's the next look for those holiday parties and soirees. This look is going to be using Higher End products to add a little bit of sexy.
Please don't mind my poor swollen face. Jaw and braces problems.

 Apply and blend foundation well with a brush. Becca Ultimate Coverage Complexion Creme.

 Because the foundation is pretty full coverage, apply concealer to the under eye area. Benefit Boing Concealer.

 Apply powder to oily areas. Bare Minerals Mineral Veil.

 Apply a bronzer to the perimeter of the face. The Body Shop Honey Bronzer.

 Apply blush to the apples of the cheeks. Cargo Blush in Prague.

 Apply your lip color. Mac Lipstick in Shy Girl and OCC Lip tar in Pris

 Apply a blue gel liner to the eyelid and blend up with your finer. Starlooks Gel Liner.

 Apply a tan shadow into the crease and then a blue shadow over the lid and up into the tan shadow in the crease. Urban Decay Vice 3 (GET IT WHILE YOU CAN!!) I used Downfall and Heroin.

 Apply a black liner to the upper and lower water lines. Urban Decay Glide-on Eye Pencil/

 Pat over the shadow with Lorac 3D Liquid Luster Drops to add that awesome sparkly shine.
Add your fav mascara, and
YOU'RE DONE!

 Thank you so much everyone for reading and following me through 101... ONE HUNDRED AND ONE POSTS!! I hope you love this look even though it is a little more expensive! Let me know what you think in the comments below! Thank you again so so much! Have a happy and safe holiday!
&> Chelcey

All Drugstore Holiday Makeup! 100TH POST!!

 I wanted to do some super quick and pretty Holiday looks for you that were on both ends of the makeup spectrum. This one is an awesome Drugstore look, so let's get started!
BTDUB... This is my 100th post! WHAAAAAAT?!

 Pat on that BB Cream! Loreal Magic Skin Beautifier BB Cream

 Apply concealer where ever you need it. Maybelline Fit Me Concealer.

 Powder in any areas that you get oily. Rimmel Stay Matte Powder.

 Contour your cheekbones and nose with a face powder that is a few shades darker than your skin tone. Covergirl Clean Powder.

 Define those eyebrows. Essence Designer Brow Pencil

 Apply an eye primer. Milani Eyeshadow Primer.. Actually quite good for drugstore!

 Apply a pearl colored eyeshadow. NYX Ultra Pearl Mania Pigment. SOOOOO PIGMENTED.

 Apply a deep brown shimmery shadow to the crease, under the brow, and on the lower lash line. NYX Glam Shadow.

 Apply a blue pencil liner to the lash line. NYX Pencil Liner.

 Give your lashes some life with mascara. Jordana Best Lash Extreme. Probably one of the best drugstore mascaras out there and it is only around 2 bucks.

 Apply a burgundy lip liner to the entire lip. NYX Lip Liner.

 Apply a red lip gloss over top. Rimmel Show Off Lip Lacquer.

And YOU'RE DONE! You have a super cute look with out breaking the bank!

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed the look. Let me know what you think in the comments below! Have a happy and safe holiday everyone!